The Reminder
Last year I encouraged everyone to write an e-mail to their future self. I wrote myself an e-mail, anticipating what 2009 held in store. I couldn’t remember if I had scheduled it to send on December 31 or January 1, so I was pleasantly surprised when it showed up in my Inbox today.
As a testimony to all that God has done in my heart and life in 2009, I’m going to share with you what a very different Katie wrote one year ago.
The E-mail
Dear Katie of the future,
I write this on December 31, 2008. It has been quite a year. I have graduated college; moved home; found my first “adult” job; applied for long-term service in the M***** world; and, most recently, started dating a man after God’s own heart, Joe.
It’s a little scary to even write about those last two things – the two great “pillars” in my heart, as [... one friend] put it. I have NO CLUE where I will be in relation to either of these things one year from now. If the past year has been one of transition, I believe the coming year will be one of great discernment.
My prayer for myself for the coming year is that I would grow more and more Christlike and become more and more dependent upon God, my Father and the Creator of all. In a year, I would like to be a holier, more prayerful, more grace-filled, discerning woman – one who loves deeply, obeys radically and walks more freely. I would like God to continue to soften my heart and make me less fiercely independent.
May this year of my life be characterized by a FREEDOM: to worship, to love, to laugh loudly, to live abundantly, to pray boldly, to sing, to dance and to speak the truth.
Not knowing what is in store in the year to come, I place myself in God’s hands and throw myself upon his mercies. Lord, come what may – whether it be the most joyous year of my life or the most painful, trying season I’ve ever walked through (or anything in between) – I am yours, now and forever. I love you.
Katie
P.S. – Let this stand as a witness to Katie of the future: Come what may in 2009, I trust completely that God has ordained everything that has happened to me this past year. He has orchestrated a beautiful relationship with Joe, and I pray I will not forget that, even in the midst of the pain that I may eventually experience.
Additionally, God has given me a heart for the unreached of the world, particularly M*****s. May he grow that heart and direct it according to his purposes.
Reflecting Back
So, how about that? To be perfectly honest, a year ago today Joe and I had been an “official couple” for all of two days, and I was terrified that we would break up and both our hearts would be broken. (I really liked this guy.)
I’m amazed to read my prayers for myself: to become more dependent on God, to be more grace-filled and discerning and to be more free. I’m amazed because that’s what God has been doing. Awesome.
The Challenge
Now, what about you? Will you write an honest e-mail to yourself to be received on December 31, 2010? I’m going to do it again.